Dreams

I really wish I knew what dreams meant. I have some insane dreams. Like last night. I lived, or was just visiting, Jillian and the house was a mess and the traffic in and out of the house was horrific. I was getting ready for a date w/ JR. This date wasn't going to be good. You could just tell as I was getting ready. I was curling my hair and he was talking to Rich on the phone. They were obviously talking about me and Rich's advice was to bail. Anyway, we went to breakfast w/ his parents and they were telling me how they couldn't stand me. But they were talking as if I wasn't there. JR claimed to have not known. Once his dad concurred w/ his mom, JR turned and asked me to leave. Then I walked about 5 miles before one of Jillian's friends saw me on the side of the road and gave me a lift. Once we got back to the house JR was there antagonizing me. He wouldn't quit. Then he took the curling iron cord and tied it around my throat. I stuck my fingers in his eyes and he stopped. Anyway, it was just weird. I don't remember what happened after that really. I just remember being totally humiliated at breakfast w/ his parents.

The other day I had a dream that my face fell off....from my bottom lip, down to my chin and over to the right side of my face, it peeled off and as I looked in the mirror, milk started pouring out of my face. I looked it up in a dream book and it said that it was because I was being decieved, manipulated, controlled, and unhappy.

Sometimes my dreams are so vivid that they kind of put me in a funk. I woke up this morning drenched from walking home in my dream (I was walking in a fury, not a leisure walk) and then fighting him. I hate sleeps like that.